18.5.2013

Today

18.5.2013

is the most special for me

so i'm going to record it

y??

because today i'm totally vry happy n excited!!!

it can consider as the day that i most happy in 2013

tonight i believe that i will smile to dream ^^

ok going to the main point~~

firstly,

i'm so happy because of today outing

today we r going out together since don no how many moths...

DEng DEng DEng~!!!!

we r so excited in the ktv room!!

like a crazy women who getting mad

scream here scream thr

so now

i hv not voice to talk again ><

but also feel happy ^^

y we r going to ktv??
because we r going to celebrate grace birthday!!!

i think that u r getting a big surprise right??

never expect that we r going to celebrate ur birthday so early

hahaah!!!

but the plan is suddenly planning by us

so nt so perfect!! >< but still ok la~~

The birthday did by Jying ^^ stilll nt bad

Our Birthday girl Grace Seng

With her ^^

Make a wish~~

we r taking so many picture today!!

Acting cute wif Horng horng~

Smile wif teeth ^^

U wan to bit me ah horng horng ~ T.T Jying n Grace laugh like idiot!! hahahaha

嘴扁扁 ..-_-...

Me r so cuteeeee ^^

after finish sing k
den we r going to la promise
because piggy yumi say her hungry d
den we teman her eating thr

The second thing that make me happy is
THe Family Dinner JUz now!!!!
it juz too happy to me!!!
Because it have been a long time that we don have the family dinner
that are all member are attending!!!
Today
all of the family member are attending to have dinner together
it make me so happy
the feeling juz like
when we r small ^^
we always have fun during the family dinner
this feeling is juz good!!!
i hope that we always hv the chance to have dinner together like today
but i know that
it is vry hard
because all of us are being to grow
n hv our own thing to do
mayb it will be the last time for us to having the dinner together like tonight
so i wish to record all of the moment n feeling in my mind n heart forever n ever

Memories of secondary school ^^

How come my life become so so so boring after me being in college life??!!!

I have totally no idea about it :(

Sometimes,

I really miss the life when me still in the secondary school

Although the life is busy

But it's full with all the memories 

until now i still can't forget it :)

everyday busy with tuition, different types of tuition

sometimes maybe 1 day fill with 2 tuition class

it's tired but enjoy!!!

now, 

i hearing my form 6 that always complain with me how her busy life is

and she say that she was envy with my college that are free all the times

at that times i totally want to shout out that

U MUST ENJOY UR LIFE IN THE SECONDARY SCHOOL RIGHT NOW!!!

i believe that many of us after step to the society will start to yearning the life when we are in the secondary school.

before that,

i still not believe the word that my bro say before

"u must enjoy ur life in the secondary school, and doing many thing nonsense thing to make future memory"

"if not leh??"

"u will REGRET!!"

hahahha!!

vry funny that at that time

i still think of "bull shit!! i'm totally hate my school PLZ!!!!"

but after i have been graduate

i am start to miss all my crazy classmates and friends

ya

vry vry vry vry miss the moment when we are study together, crazy together, noisy together and also cry together.

i wonder if the time fly back to the moment again and again.....

how beautiful and cruel the time are....

now,

all of them have been in different place and country to continue their dream

we have fly

fly to our future

to make the dream become true

the time is cruel, the memories are sweet

although we have less of connection 

but i believe that

in a place of our heart and mind

sure have the stiff of each other

at least we are together before.....

PICTURE TIMES!!!

Class photo ^^ (all of us so serious ><!!)

Dang dang dang!!! my false daddy Han wei papa~  i hv forget y we will become a  daughter and daddy but i know u r the 1 who always talk n cheer me n buli me!!! hahahh!!
however, we r always keep in touch^^ (plz don always cal me find bf la >< dio find bo lo T.T) 

Chew Jia Ying, the one of my 心灵导师. always hear me saying nonsense thing hahahha!!
tq u always in my side when i need some hug n ear ( but plz don always beat me -_-)

he the one most annoying but the ppl i rmb for life!! Bobo Tan
always kacau me n 毫无贡献！！！
but juz cant forget because we r friend for 5 years + (juz unlucky to know u T.T)

四朵花！！hahhaha the nickname of us
we have know each other because of we r 'neighbours'
juz glad that i have u all ^^
bff!!!

the ppl i 又爱又恨！！
we know each other at least 10 years d!!
but we have the connection only when we r in f4
hahhaha!!! y??
u know i know la~
love u forever la mo~~~

the guy make my secondary life become colorful  ^^
because of u i hv the memories of sweet and also shame at the sametimes
when i remind back still feel that OMG!!! hahahha (laugh with a big smile)

my 蓝颜知己 ccj!!! the one who make me scold the most, my ah mat, my sticker delivery , my rubbish tank n etc...
we r important to each other
also the some word
bff!!

we r officially graduate!!! yeah!!! ^^

fly to the new sky guys!!!!

momo: what u all doing !! >< (kissssssssss...)

sy: lai kiss kiss          kh: don wan>< (shy shy...)

Lamoz Liew: u r shorter!!! -_-....

Jee Yin: KH 大老婆， CH 小老婆， MOMO 小三 ^^

performance for our graduate show :') a touching song ever ^^

smile everybody~ (graduate trip)

yeah!!! have fun!!!

last year gathering~ ^^
LAST PICTURE!!!

WE R 5SC4!!! (don play play har...)
after seeing those pic,
the memories are ready to show again
hahhaha
i have been young n crazy in my life
so
peeps plz enjoy the life u hv right now
no wonder where r u right now ^^
ya
hv to announce that
me only realize that i din tk a pic wif 'HIM' in secondary
so

This is the only pic we have tk together ^^

juz like that la

enjoy the life~~

Updating.......

HI my blog ^^

how r u right now?? 

hahhaha

          i know i hv been a long long time did not update my blog 

(almost 1 year ++ i think -_-)

     because of nothing to write so i not going to update it

( the most bigger reason is because of my laziness ><)

so, i think that now u will feel that y i suddenly updating my blog right?? 

all of this is due to the feel of BORING!!!!

i'm totally hv nothing to do right this moment now!!!!

so, after watching many buddies blog, i decided to update my blog right now ^^

ok

due to the long time i do not update my blog

now i going to update my own state of affairs

 i hv been study in KDU diploma in business n now in the way of graduate 

is it fast??

i feel so

after graduate in secondary school

i feel that all my time have pass so fast until i can't chase n hold it in my hand

all the thing have pass to me so fast until sometimes i can't even breathe ><

but right now

i have been slowly satisfied myself in this situation ^^

now i have move out from burmathel almost half the year n stay with my classmate, Cindy

well, it's good to staying with friend

have fun together 

ok that's all the situation by me right now

clear n clean ^^ 

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because of my boring 

i go to look back my facebook since i start to use it

i feel vry funny when looking to the pic of myself in year 2009

OMG!!!!

y i look so...... ( speechless ....)

let us see the changes of mine from 2009 till 2013

this is 2009!!! LOOK!!! how young and fresh am i ^^ (OMG!!!!)

2010...still fresh n young (hahahhaha xD)

This capture in 2011 n when the moment i playing the thing i most scare ><!!  FERRIS WHEEL
but when it come down then i smile d ^^

The year that i in the university, 2012slowly being mature d right ^^ （narcissism ><)

2013 <3 font="">

After seeing those pic 

i feel that

i have being grow up

being force to grow up

this is the feeling that can't be describe but u have to feel by your own selves

a picture can record the moment and the situation of the people

but the feeling have to remember by yourself

although the life are full of happy and sad

but we still have to enjoy right ^^

no matter how worse are the life

i will still keep on moving!!!

because i think i have pass the worse time in my life 

now

i enjoy the life i have now 

and appreciate to every moment together with my friend and family

Those pic have record not only my change in face 

but also my life 

they record all the thing i remember in my life

so now i have to say to myself

KEEP FIGHTING N MOVING ON THE THE BETTER WAY!!!

Hi 2013^^

finally i say hi to u :P

★Renew★

long time din update my blogger d

do u all miss me??

i think nt

hahahah!!

however la~

There are too many thing happen to me at my first semester 

some thing make my life change 

and make me feel thanks to that guy

some thing i vry dislike and ignore 

is happen at this semester

however it feel nt bad ^^

××××

me secondary skul life is really really go to the end 

all my dearest friend have started their study at different plc

like utar, kl,singapora and penang

still gt some of my friend are ready to attending the f6 class

it really feel sad cuz we cannot chit chat on time d

how much i miss that time we keep talking n laughing loudly together

it will never 4gt for me although we r at the different palce of the world ^^

juz wan to tel all my dearest friend

no wonder how long the distance we have

i still hope that u all can stay well and health

plz.......

don 4gt me this abit crazy , childish n kind friend
miss u all 4ever~~~

××××

my college work have start to rush again n again

what the hell is it ==''

however la....

this semester i hv take 6 subj

6 subj!!!!!!!!!!

r u crazy ???

sometime i asking myself this question.....

there have almost 3 subj need to memorize hard n many

and i feel that i don no hv such a strong memory -.-

but

this have becum the fact

so

i have to try my best to handle those subj.....

plz pray 4 me friend ~~~~T.T

next semester started

there r many familiar face appaer in kdu college of penang

should feel warm???

abit lo~

according to my new semester friend

this new intake gt almost 100+ business student!!!

oh my godh!!!!!

my intake time juz gt 40+ business student only

how come now becum so many d....

that mean i have to work very very hard to achieve my goals

T.T

hope i can do so~

××××

according to my this sem timetable 

i have only 3 day class per week

this mean

i will be vry free on this semester juz becuz this is a long semester

so

many of my buddy start to find a part time job to consume their time

this also becuz we need money T.T

how pity is it~

i also wan to find a part timr job

so i have tel my plan to my mum

non a minute

my parent have reject my plan

why!!!!!!

juz becuz they need worker during the early morning n nt reassurance me stay at penang 4 work

becuz of this reason

i have gv up my plan to find a part time job at penang

BUT!!!!!

i try to find a part time job at my hometown,Taiping

hahahhahha!!!^^

this time my parent juz say

"u like"

yeah!!!!!!

me can earn money to buy the thing i wan d!!!!!

how great is it!!

i have decide to be a part time tuition teacher for primary skul student

n the plc i also hv find juz need go to tk a ask or interview~

so happy~~(clap clap^^)

hope that i can handle all of this thing la ~

×××××

erm.......

since we have over about a month

no wonder my friend say me like a toy or hotel

i also feel vry thank you to u

becuz of you

i know the meaning of a life but nt a love

i know what i really want from my life

and

i know how to cheer up myself without losing my smile

no wonder u never admit the relation between us to the other

actually

there have nothing happen between both of us before

maybe it juz a game for u

and i juz the player 2 who accompany you play the game

but have to say that

i lose d

juz becuz i hv take serious b4

however

the thing is over

we should let it get over

keep on step at the same place

is a silly behavior

i admit that i have get a little sad b4

but the bigger sadness make me emo 

is the thing say by somebody

how much i get hurt ><

whatever la....

it have gone

don think too much d...

××××

NOw

i juz wan to enjoy my life , my youth , my smile 

n my sweat～

STARTING A NEW LIFE NOW GUYS!!!!!!

★A nEw LiFe★

A new year is start!!!!

没错啦～

新的一年又到啦^^

今年呢

我的人生经历非常大的改变
怎么说呢？？
就是
我成年啦！！^^
但对我而言
一点都不好!!><
因为
要开始一个人在外地生活
槟城。。。
虽然偶尔会觉得有点孤单
常常一个人坐在电脑前
想念我的家人
我的朋友
还有很多很多东西
但
在槟城
我也不怎么寂寞
因为认识了很多新朋友啊^^
都是来自各地和别的国家
哇！！！好兴奋啊！！
不得不提这个女孩子
有点小可爱却有个很漂亮的人
她就是cindy he 啦～～
怎么说呢
我们算是因为搭巴士而认识的朋友吧
很巧的我们也是同一科系的
开心～～～
她也是我在学校里最亲密的朋友
我们之间有很多话题聊
可以说是话我们就能聊
我喜欢静静听她说话
她又常常笑笑的听我倾诉
这感觉还挺不错的
当然
我和我同一科系的朋友感情也不错啦～
常常一起吵闹咯
我会尽全力enjoy 我的新生活的！！！
××××××
你！！！
让我很无言。。。。
有时候你真的让我很不知所措
真的不懂要给你什么反应
有时我还会出现错觉
以为是真的
可是过后我又要很努力很努力的抽离
真的真的很累嘞。。。
可以理清楚现在的关系吗？？
haiz....
说了都浪费力气-.-
最让这一切慢慢
慢慢的消失不见吧

★ emo★

有多久没有发自内心的哭了呢？？

很久了吧。。。

从年头那件事后

都没有伤心的哭过了

每个独自人的晚上

那些事总会历历在目的呈现

总是会流下眼泪

我真的很没用！！！！

为什么过了那么久

却还是放不下

有谁知道

我真的很害怕

不知所措

我好怕事情又在重现

我好怕这种幸福维持不久

我对于现在的一切一切都好怕

这就是我

没用，又不坚强的我

我不想在经历这些无谓的挫折

我不想每天哭哭啼啼的

我很会乱乱想

因为经历的太多

我学不会你的坚强

我真的真的很努力

那件事后

我每天都努力享受现在的一切

努力的笑

努力的幸福

但独自一人时

又开始胡思乱想

我该怎么办？？

说出来？？

说不出。。。。。

可是真的好辛苦。。。。

真的真的好无助

眼泪又在载满在眼眶里

又是一个无助的夜晚

我讨厌眼泪的味道

却又渐渐习惯了这个感觉

我了解

这并没什么

因为世界上还有许多人比我更痛苦，更难过

擦干眼泪

要微笑！！

无论什么事都要笑。。。。

××××××××

朋友

我没事

别担心

只是压抑太久

是时候释放出来了

×××××××

从那天开始

其实我已经长大了

以前幼稚的想法

都没了

对于感情

只是纯粹好感

别想太多

现在搞清楚了也好

就少了一些烦恼

我的未来还有好多路要走

现在的事

只是一些挫折

我不再轻易掉眼泪

因为现在的事都不值得

×××××××××

朋友真的真的别担心

由此是你！！！！！

放心吧。。。。

别说出去噢～～嘘

★ 更新★

有多久没有更新部落格了呢？？

erm...

好久好久咯。。。

为什么不要更新？？

原因是！！

懒惰。。==''

×××××

最近发生了好多好多事啊

开心不开心的都有

但都过去啦

不提也罢

×××××

trial快到了

可是本人实在太懒惰了

一本书都没有动到

所以才有这样的空闲写部落格==''

真的很担心

一直不断在脑海里告诉自己应该是时候读书了

但就是行动不了

haiz....

该怎么办啊！！！！

××××××

erm...

感情嘞？？

==''

我真的真的没有谈恋爱！！！

要讲几百次才懂啊？？

虽然大家都很希望这是真的

但我们真的真的没有在一起！！！

omg....

×××××××

其实

我知道我们是不可能的

即使你真的说出口了

但这还是不可能的

我希望的是一段长久的感情

不是小孩子玩家家酒一样

玩过就算

2，3个月的感情？？

我接收不到。。

所以

趁早放弃是对的

我也没想过我们会有怎样的发展

大家都说世上没有绝对的事

或许吧。。

你的花心

是我就接受不了的事实

××××××

快要进入12点了。。。。

说起来也奇怪吧

我特爱在晚上哭的

哈哈。。。好笑吧

哭的原因？？

毫无原因

听着歌

眼泪就悄悄的掉下来了

我有病了！！！

开什么玩笑。。。

每个人都有他不想想起的过往吧

往往把它藏在心里的最底层

却又在一个人的时候

又悄悄的拿出来

独自流泪

这就是人生

即使你有多么的不愿意

你还是得面对它

我不爱哭

甚至是非常讨厌

哭只会显示自己的脆弱

没有人会同情你

笑着面对

才会让悲伤从心里消失

那些常常觉得自己很可怜，很悲伤

好像全世界都不了解他的人

其实更本就是自己活该

人本来就是要互相了解才能相处

如果你从来不曾告诉别人自己的悲伤

不曾向人表达自己真真的感受

那人家有怎样了解你？？

所以不要再说你有多悲多惨

不要再说自己伪装得多么辛苦

那都是自找的

世界上真真的苦

你真的经历过吗？？

真的了解什么叫害怕吗？？

自掏心的问吧。。。

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最后再强调

我很讨厌大嘴巴的人

不要把我对你的信任

慢慢地往脚里踩

一再的开玩笑

只是要保留彼此之间的感情